Dear Family,
This week... ahh. I'm not sure exactly what is going on, but I - dear family, love my life. Honestly, I'm not really sure as to what's going on.
Wait - that isn't exactly true. I read a talk that was all in all incredible. Actually, it was exactlywhat I needed. It is called "the Fourth Missionary" - explaining the four different groups of missionaries: their choices, and the concequences which inevitably follow.
I am not sure if you have sensed it - if it is even possible to sense (via email) - fully how I have felt about the mission. This has been the most important part of my life thus far.
Dear reader, I can't really explain the feelings that accompany this work - it is truly a roller-coaster. There is so much unseen opposition. So many invisible forces at play here.
On entering the mission field, my thoughts were completely self-centered:
"I am giving 2 years of my life to do church stuff. I like to do what I like to do, but I'll endure the 2 years that God requires and then I'll go back, and everything will be normal."
The prior mentioned talk explains a very interesting and highly important aspect - one very often overlooked.
The 1st Missionary: Doesn't obey mission rules - thinks of himself as a 'free-thinker'; either goes home or is sent home for misconduct;
Consequence: lives contrary to the way of happiness - not changed (for the better) by his mission
The 2nd Missionary: Doesn't obey - stays all of his mission, but the good he could have done is left undone
Consequence: lives contrary to the way of happiness - not changed (for the better) by his mission
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The 3rd Missionary: Conforms his will to all the rules - lives according to the way of happiness - feels the Spirit in large measure in his life; does much good but in conforming his will to God, he separates what the Lord wants to him to do from what he wants to do;
Consequence: Is not changed by his mission.
If you would, I'd like you to read "the Fourth Missionary" - because I haven't the time to write out the talk - neither am I as eloquently straight forward as he (insert author's name that I cannot remember). But the important thing to realize is that - the Fourth missionary works through the pouring rain and the blistering sun. He feels the discouragement just as anyone else. He isn't a fanatic.
The difference is that he gives more than just his might and strength. He gives is heart. And in doing that, he decides to give render his will to God. He says, "Lord, I'll do whatever you tell me to do."
Dear family, I'm working on it.
I love you so much.
We're off right now to help Rafael Esparza Arreola to get his grades up so that he can get baptized.
Love,
Elder Ostler
What really happens is that--and here is where the message ends folks! I know! He just loves giving us cliff hangers!